There is something very wrong with how things are now days. I will be the first to admit, my life is not nearly perfect. Even when everything seems great. When all is going well in my life, there is something missing. It is a dark hole, hidden away from all thoughts and emotions. It is like a shipwreck at the bottom of the ocean, resting in the pitch black water. It sits on sand and between rocks, hidden away from all possible reminders. It is in these uncharted depths, I now wish to venture to and explore.
It is my hope, I will discover what it is I lost and have been absentmindedly searching for. The cause and reason behind why I feel such emptiness when I look deep inside myself. Why I feel so alone, when I am surrounded by friends and loved ones. What could possibly be missing? Could it be that the grass always looks green on the other side? If so, why can’t we just break the fence down and enjoy the whole pasture?
Humans go to such extents to obtain what they believe will make them happy, be it money, sex, or power. Yet with every dose of these drugs, our addiction strengthens and our tolerance grows. Still, we stand. Alive and wanting more, craving more, never allowing anything to stand in our way. We take everything from the land around us, and never pay our respects or give back. All so we can obtain our fix of our desired poison.
However, after everything is said and done, a void is still lodged in our soul. Yet as the intelligent being’s we are, we repeat our actions, with hopes of different results. Most of the time, they are not. We relive the same results and play into the same false beliefs that by the time we should be pulling away from this nonsense, it is engrained in our minds and our habits. Making it virtually impossible to remove ones self and approach the problem from a different angle.
“For one to change their life, one must first change the things in their life.”
Mile 29 