Fear and Happiness

Numerous life altering moments will arise in the span of an individuals life. Many of these will pass without conscious awareness but some will be brought to the forefront of our attention and require a definitive decision. It is these few select crossroad moments I would like to speak about. The answer is seldom placed in our hands but rather is hidden among various possibilities. It is up to us to sift through a mound of sand with hope of finding a single specific grain. This is what life offers us and in the end I assume there is no correct answer, but their are definitely ones which are better choice then others. It is in this frame that I search and seek the one grain leading to my happiness. It is not monetary happiness I search for, but an earth shattering, mind awakening, soul releasing happiness.

How many of us know what makes us happy? How many of us know where we want our lives to go? How many of us know what we want to do for the rest of numbered days here on earth? Some know from an early age while it takes the better part of fifty years for others to find it. I personally would it be the former than the latter. I understand the world changes, life happens, and what once was the highlight of our day can transform into the black ooze of nightmares. At this moment though, we can strive for what we believe will open the door for happiness. For this to pass we must first know and understand ourselves. We need to spend time in our own head, and that proves to be a very potent fear.